Today I am sober 30 days~ I couldn’t be happier. I’m happy because I choose to reach out and joined AA. I think that was really important to me that I had a choice. I wasn’t forced into rehab or had an intervention staged by family or friends. Even better no court system or the law forced me to seek a 12 step program. I decided I had enough. I decided I wanted to feel better. I decided that after trying to moderate on my own or quit for so many XX days wasn’t the answer or going to help me feel better. I did it on my own terms and only I could of made the decision on what was best for me and essentially my children and family.
If I don’t want it, no one else can make it happen for me.
However I do want it. I want sobriety and all the freedom that comes with it. It may not always be easy and being sober won’t make everyday problems go away but hopefully with the help of a 12 step program, I will be able to face the “hard stuff” without numbing or isolating myself.