Ummm, hello? We are half way thru December and Christmas is in less than a week. I remember saying to myself, wow November flew by. I looked at the calendar yesterday and thought, I have been sober for 8 weekends in a row? When I tried the 100 day challenge the past I made it 2 weeks and had to start over. So many times I would say, I will only drink on weekends, or special events, or every other day and some times I would do it but not before long I would be back to drinking 5,6 or 7 days per week. So one morning when I was wide awake at 3:30 I finally just had enough of the bullshit. and I vowed to quit for 100 days. I told myself I wouldn’t die or miss out on anything if I quit for 100 days. Guess what, I am on Day 58 and I am ok. I have been moody, irritable, restless, and bored at times but the moments pass. However, I was like too when I was drinking. I have watched friends drink a glass or two and even watched friends get drunk. I have had a few moments where I wish I was drinking too but not once have I had a moment when I woke up and said, I wish I was hung over. I don’t miss the hangovers. I don’t miss eating shitty greasy food in hopes it makes me feel better. I don’t miss trying to hide my drinking or how much I already had. I don’t miss trying not to slur when I speak. I don’t miss the unknown of I did that or I said that?
Looking back the past 58 days were not really that hard… yup there were some sucky moments but the time is flying by and I am ok with it.
I am looking forward to Christmas and the New Year. There will be no New Years resolution this year because I already started mine. Every year I make a promise to drink less, exercise more and be healthier. The hardest one I am already doing, drink less. The rest will fall into place as more days go by.
I am actually proud of myself and I don’t remember the last time I said that.
Thanks for your support.